1 in 4 women will experience a pregnancy or infant loss.

The 1 in 4 statistic is often used by health professionals in a way to try and take away some of the pain their patient is feeling after experiencing a pregnancy or infant loss - to explain that it’s “common.” That miscarriage is something that many women experience, that losing a baby happens to hundreds of families each day. While bringing up the commonality may be an explanation it's not the mother's fault, it doesn't take away the fact that bereaved parents immediately feel isolated after they have learned of the loss of their baby. Feelings of guilt and anger take over. Questioning why this happened to them, why this happened to their baby.

Yes, losing a baby happens much more than we realize. But that doesn’t mean the bereaved families experiencing these losses feel any less alone in their journeys. The truth is that you are the only one who truly knows your experience and the love you felt for your baby. Not even your partner can know the inner workings of your grief. You deserve all the support you need to navigate your grief journey and to incorporate your loss into your new normal. 

It’s not just a statistic. It's me.

Unfortunately there's no quick fix for grief or a fast-forward button. But there are things you can do to help take care of yourself, even if it gives you just a few minutes of relief each day.

- Embrace the comfy clothes. Wear your favorite sweatshirt, treat yourself to a new pair of slippers, or curl up in a soft blanket.
- Try reading for 10 minutes before you go to bed - it may just help you fall asleep faster.
- Whether you decide to journal privately, share your story on social media or create an art project, these are all ways to express your feelings. Don't keep it all bottled up.
- Trouble falling asleep or waking up frequently is common while grieving. Don't be afraid to bring this up to your provider. Try laying down for just 20 minutes during the day to at least rest, even if you can't fall asleep.
- Connecting with nature can be very healing - getting some steps in for light movement and feeling the sunshine is a huge plus.
- Find a new way to honor your baby - some ideas: share your story in a support group, wear a remembrance bracelet, paint rocks and hide them around your town, drop off some goods to your local food pantry, create a playlist of meaningful songs.
- Keep hydrated - it sounds silly, but remembering to drink water or tea is important. Your body is physically healing, as well, and needs the nourishment.

What will you do today to take care of yourself? Share any other ideas with us here in the comments.

For the month of November, we displayed a beautiful "Thankful Tree" in our Center for Child Loss. Sweet little leaves were decorated with the names of the babies we are missing each and every day. After experiencing a pregnancy or infant loss, we know that the holidays can be overwhelming, daunting, and even more of an emotional roller coaster. We hope this tree reminds you that there is room in heart for both grief and gratitude and that your baby is with you as you continue to travel this grief journey.

Pictures and videos were shared on our Facebook and Instagram during November. Thank you to everyone who shared their babies' names with us and for the loving messages appreciating the tree. 

By Emily, Lena's mom

​I delivered my daughter stillborn on January 10th, 2016. In the days and weeks following her death, many people reached out to me and expressed how sorry they were for our loss.  “I can’t imagine the pain you are feeling” or “I can’t imagine what you’re going through” were common things said. 

But how about, just for a moment, you try to imagine it.  Try really hard to put yourself in this situation.  Imagine you are lying on the table at a routine OB appointment as your doctor waves the Doppler over your belly, patiently waiting to hear a heartbeat. Minutes pass. No sounds detected. You follow your doctor down the hallway, half knowing that something is terribly wrong but half believing you be proven wrong. You lay on the table in the ultrasound room, and then you hear the words that will break your heart into a million pieces:  “I’m afraid something has happened.  This is where the heartbeat should be.”  Now your reaction may have been different to mine – we react to shocking news in unique ways.  But try to imagine what your reaction would have been in that exact moment. Screaming. Crying. Disbelief.  Shock.  Anger.  Sadness.  Questions.  So many questions. Why? Why?  Why?

Imagine having to go back home and wait two days before being induced.  Imagine that your baby, who was living inside of you for more than five months, is no longer kicking, her heart is no longer beating.  Imagine being at the hospital, in a room similar to where your son was born three years ago, but with the understanding this outcome will be very different.  Imagine going through hours of excruciating labor only to know you won’t have a healthy baby at the end to make the pain all worth it.  Imagine feeling so scared when it’s time to push – you know this needs to end but you don’t want it to, because then it will be truly real. 

Now imagine this – the silence.  Deafening silence.  And then imagine holding your stillborn baby - examining her features, noticing how even though she is tiny, she looks very similar to her big brother.  You want to scream as you hear a newborn cry down the hall while you hold your lifeless baby.  Imagine watching your husband sob as he carefully holds your daughter.   Nothing in these moments makes sense.  You are thinking, “why did this happen to us?”  “We’re good people, we don’t deserve this.”  “This is so unfair.” 

Weeks pass and sympathy cards and gifts arrive.  Many struggle with what to say.  “At least she wasn’t full-term.”  “At least you’re young, you can have more babies.”  “At least you have your son.”  There is no “at least” when a baby dies.  Imagine how hurtful these statements can be. Whether 8 weeks, 38 weeks, or 8 days old...your life changed the moment you saw the positive pregnancy test.  Dreams for the future are gone, forever changed.

The next time you are about to say, “I can’t imagine”, I suggest you reconsider. Saying something like “I can ONLY imagine what you are going through” is more sensitive to a bereaved parent and shows you are willing to take on their pain, even if it’s for just a moment.